help me......

the trip was a total disaster. not only was i not more relaxed, i feel like i want to kill myself even more. i really dunno wat to do anymore. no one to talk to abt my things. i need a hug. really need to feel some warmth from a friend. but there is no one for me.

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i remember something i read about depression. it said that people who want to kill themselves would not say they want to kill themselves to anyone. so am i considered to be in depression?

if this is a cry for help, would u lend a hand?