5 long hrs....

i can feel that u are making an effort to make things less awkward between us and i must have been behaving like an total arse hole.... but i dun think i can help behaving like this. but i swear i was also trying my best....

i had wanted to talk to u after work but that seem impossible too... 

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is it just me or is it that when i want to face the prob, something would make it more complicated for me to solve it?

i dun wish to run away from but it seems to be getting more and more difficult to stop.

and i am left with the option to carry on runnin'

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我设下了一个我不会解的局。。。

end of the road....

the way that it was delivered was swift and full of joy....
so much so that it hurts....

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nobody could see it but i was shivering throughout...
maybe it is better that this wasn't face to face....
my self assessment of the situation isn't as great as i thought it is.

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maybe this is my stop.... time to get off the bus....

will i get on another bus?

worthless....

i feel so fucking unwanted....

maybe my family can do w/o me...