mouthful....

i always think i can say whatever i want in this blog, but as time goes on(and more and more people knowing abt the existence of this blog), it becomes harder and harder to say wat i want....

recently i got quite a bit of things somehow getting stuck in my chest and with no outlet to let it out... its feeling more and more like constipation(y am i using this as a metaphor?). u know u have loads of crap to let out, but somehow u cant do ur business...

or a better way to describe it is u want to scream.... but u are afraid it will scare the ppl ard u... and now all u want to do is to find a place with no end in sight, and just scream(cry or watever f**k shit that u want to do...), but this place seems elusive(a better way to put it: u can never find such a place)... i think this really sums up my feeling for these few days...