i do care, with cash......

ever since i started working part-time to earn $, i have spent $n on buying stuffs, but its mostly not for myself but for people who are close to me(its close to 80% for others). even if they just casually mentioned that they wanted a certain something.

i had never thought too much of spending on things for my sis esp. i feel its somehow my way of showing my concern for her or compensating her for my mistakes(she got lost in the shopping mall when she was still a toddler and its all bcoz i was looking at toys).

maybe its how i was brought up, or some other factors. but recently i start to wonder, is this right? as in i dunno any other way to show my concern for others. sometimes i feel so uncaring for others when i buy stuffs but that seems to be the only way i know how to show that i care...

maybe thats y when i am broke, i feel that i have no ways or means to let people close to me feel that i care for them...

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does the title rhyme or what? hehehe