it just doesn't match.....

sometimes, i feel that i myself have trouble understanding myself.
my actions doesn't match what i have in mind.

i bought some mooncakes for choon yan and left it outside her door. i want to see her but i guess she still does not want to see me and thus the decision to leave it outside her door. after about 10 minutes, i texted her regarding the mooncakes for her. she called me immediately after receiving my sms. she sounded friendly but the replies i gave her was more of cold in tones and giving singular word answers. in the end, we hung up after exchanging less that 5 line of words. i want to be able to talk to her normally but when she called, i am just unable to speak in a more normal tone.

really dunno wats wrong with me?