hopeless.........

juz attended sharon's wedding dinner and met up with my old classmates(some working, some still pursing higher education....) and were reminiscing the old time shared in ite. the playing of daidee using uno cards, playing network games during class, skipping lessons etc.... those were the days.
but the most memorable for me would be seeing her again. seeing her again after all this years juz made fond memories i had for her come back. the "her" mentioned here is huiling. the sweet memories of the things we did together are my most precious memories.
i should have tried to talk with her more. i should have ask if i can send her home. instead, i didn't really talk much to her and when i had the chance to send her home, i didn't. i just hate myself for being such a coward. i do not have the courage to do the thing i should have done. sometimes i really wonder wtf am i doing?
i am really hopeless in these things...........