island survival....

my heart feels very heavy...
i used to have someone whom i share most of my probs... now, even though she is beside me, i just cant tell her whats bothering me...

is it true the more u are concerned about someone, the more u cannot bear to let them know ur probs for fear of letting them worry too? not too sure abt that but it sure applies to me.

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i think i need some time alone but i am afraid to be alone.
i would love to hear bad news on ur side but can't bear to see u sad...

and i am such a walking contradiction...