mess i create......

wat have i done?

i made a mess out of everything.... i know i shouldn't have said it but it just came to me and when i was forced by her, i just said thing which hurt...

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sometimes i really think sam and i have a very reversed life. whenever i have problems, she would have a blissful life and vice versa. as a friend, i should be happy for her, but sometimes, i would wish she would quarrel with her "it"...

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i really feel a sense of lost all over again... it really feels like august all over again....

should i do something to repair the damage or should i just leave it as it is and try to get the over the grief of losing her again?

i want to see her again...